Tuesday, March 30, 2010

There is nothing exciting going on in my life right now....my world is pretty darn Zen right now. Is there anything anyone wants to here about?

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Go Team Jacob

Recently I have had the opportunity to clue a friend in on the complex nature of the Twilight Sages.

My Friend intently listened to my giddy, child-like babbling about the books, and movies, and why Team Jacob is better then Team Edward. As he was asking questions and I was answering them, in great detail. I was blow away that he knew nothing of the love between a vampire and a human, and shocked that he was unaware of the the of the long standing treaty between the Werewolf pack and the Vampire coven.

So as this conversation was going on, we were getting ready to watch Star Wars Episode III: Revenge of the Sith. I asked questions through out the entire movie, and he thoroughly explained everything to me......he sounded like such a geek. He told me about the The Force and why they are fighting and who was who and why that person is important. In those moments of listening to him babble like a child, I realized that when I was sharing all the reason I consider my self a Twi-Hard, he was probably thinking I was a Twi-geek. That will teach me not to make fun of the Star Wars fanatics anymore, I am just a nerdy as they are.

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Spoken From the Heart

Today I got my first hike of the season in. It was a blast. I got a great cardio workout, and my ass feels a bit more lifted then it did this morning. I am pretty sure Mr. W (a.k.a. Mr. Wonderful) thought I was going to get him lost in the woods, due to the fact that I started down the wrong trail, but I managed to get us both back to the car safely. I was quite proud of myself, I did not fall once, even when we were traipsing through the snow. Mr. W has yet to experience that full depth of my clumsiness, but I was extra careful to pay attention to my surroundings today.

Now to address an issue that has been weighing heavily on my mind the last few days. I know that there are those out there that are really excited to see me on a path to a healthy relationship, and I am grateful that I have such a strong and loving support system around me. With that said, I am in no rush to rush things, and am a little reluctant, no make that extremely hesitant, to have the important people in my life get to know this guy. I am not ashamed of anyone, or him, I am just really enjoying getting to know this man, without the pressure of having to share my time with him amongst those who are very special to me. We have both agreed that we have a good pace going, and we are not ready to jump quickly into a full blown, completely committed, anything. Besides, we have only been seeing each other for about a month for God's sake.

There are some that may think I am being a bit of a shithead, and selfish because of this decision. I would like them to understand that I want Mr. W to be known as that great guy that I managed to find (and keep) rather then saying "Remember that one guy you brought around, what ever happened to him?" To me, meeting the family (and I mean blood line family, not friends that I consider family) is a big big deal, and I really want to make sure he is worthy of getting to know the amazing people that they are. I am just asking everyone to respect my effort to build this into something more then a brief fling. The lack of introductions is not at all a personal attack towards anyone, it is just me protecting my heart.

Sunday, March 7, 2010

A Brief History in Dating.

So I am blissfully infatuated with my new friend. I love this part of a budding romance where you can not find one flaw with the other. I know it may end at any moment, but I will enjoy this part of the ride as long as I possibly can. I did ask him what he would like his fake name to be, but he hasn't come up with anything. He did say Joseph, but considering that is one of my parents' name's, I just could not let him use it, that would just be weird. So for now, I think I will refer to him as Mr. Wonderful, Mr. Big is already taken.

Anyone that really knows me is very aware that I have made probably the worst choices in men. I know that I am not alone in these bad decisions, there are tons of women (and men) out there that have not chosen wisely when it comes dating and relationships. I have had, what I consider, two actual boyfriends, the others where just fillers along the way to terrible relationships.

My first "real love" was a guy that I had meet when I turned 21. His name was Mike. He was ten years older then me, and he spoiled me rotten. I was a trophy for him. He was a god to me. Alas, his drugs got in the way, and one day, he was not the same man that I worshiped. I grew up, he went to jail. I did recently reconnect with him, and it was a total disaster. My second was Josh, and I don't think I ever really loved him. I think I loved the idea of loving him. As Sophie has pointed out recently, he was my soul mate. Not in the happily ever after kind of fairly tale way, but in the if I had not gone through the torture of him, I would not be the strong, wonderful person I am today, kind of way. The amount of personal growth he set in motion for me is astounding. He was abusive in every sense of the word. He turned me into a statistic, just another number in the battered woman charts.

Those two men where my Achilles Tendons at the time. Now they are minor scars that, on occasion, remind me that I have to work on my strength and flexibility so I never have to deal with that kind of injury again. Which brings me back to Mr. Wonderful. He is the total opposite of everything I have been attracted to in my past. He has a job, a car, a sense of humor, and is completely open and honest about himself. There is none of that silly mind trip, game play with him. I have been enjoying getting to know him, and it is so adult and mature and refreshing. I actually like to be around him, and I like being nice to him. That is just so out of character for me.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

To All My Friends

I want to take this world wide, that is my plan. In order to do this, I need to get this Blog out there. To all my friends, Flinx, Angel, Sophie, Lucy, Stacy, Walt, and other people I don't have fake names for yet, I ask you to pass this link around, to the point that people think they are getting spam mail, and they start seriously missing the days of telemarketers at dinner time. And by the way thanks to all of you for playing along with picking out your names.

On another note, that guy I have been seeing is awesome. It seems silly to write about it because all of you that read this have been hearing me gushing for three weeks now, and I'm sure you are getting sick of it. Now let someone else be bothered (or amused) by my insane acts of infatuation, and pass this around.